Day 4

I managed to make it this far! I really wanted tomato soup last night. I avoided it and managed to not eat ribs last night either. I'm really proud of myself too. I'm also down 7 pounds!

Day two recap

I had eggs...

I did really well all day today. I got really hungry though after my last shake and didn't want another shake. So, I made two scrambled eggs with pepper. Hopefully this doesn't derail my efforts. This is only the first week. And this isn't a huge setback. It's okay once in a while.

I should step on a scale tomorrow morning. Make myself see that this is worth it. I know I'll feel better and look better after this is over. Just gotta stay strong...

Day one, and an Explanation

Today was day one. I'm tired, I'm cranky, and I want orange chicken. That's what my family is having for dinner. I also woke up with a fever this morning and a stuffy nose. I think I'm catching an early spring flu bug or something. Oh well, less reason to really want that stupid orange chicken which looked REALLY good when I had to cook it. Yes, that's right...I am still expected to make dinner for my family because my fiance is incapable of making himself food. I, on the other hand am perfectly capable of making food, just not capable of eating it. Food addictions suck.

Now on to the explanation:

Let Them Eat Cake...

I, ManoloBlanikGrl, am addicted to three things: Shoes, Food in general, and Cake. Probably why I am in the predicament I am in. I used to hate cake. It was awful spongy disgusting stuff until recently. I hated the sweet sandy texture of it that is so often produced in the grocery store. However, I discovered the world that is REAL cake. Not crap cake. Real cake is dense, moist and flavorful with frosting that is light and airy and not at all sweet, but wonderfully rich and amazing.

Well, as of a week ago I decided to let them, the masses (meaning my family and friends) to eat cake. I will abstain. I will kick the sweet habit. I will no longer eat crap (or food in general until I am a size 6/8 rather than a size 18/20).

This is not going to be easy. I already miss food.

New Beginnings...

Today marked the end of a long standing battle between myself and the refrigerator. We've had our ups and downs (mostly me downing everything in it) and I'm hesitant to actually do this. I have to. At this point, I'm 25 with one child and zero thyroid. I love to run and ride bikes, but I just can't seem to get a handle on food. Specifically, not eating it.

Tomorrow means that I give it up and turn to the shakes for 12 weeks. I can do this, and I know I can.